Rose with Thorns

I am a rose with thorns. As I bloom, my thorns become sharper. I protect myself with my thorns. I cry myself to sleep and the unbearable pain is too much for me… I hope that one day I can escape from the depths of despair and no longer return. I do not wish to look back. My past is nothing but bad memories – darkness, pain, sadness, despair. This is the darkness inside me that I wish to hide and bury. I wish to forget my past but no one can change the past.

Lately, I just feel trap. I hope for a bright future but I must find a way to forget the people who is continuously causing me so much pain. However, how can you forget these people when you actually see and hear them every single day? You say you cry for me but you do not know how long I have cried myself to sleep. You do not know how many times I have to cry myself to sleep because all I feel is anguish. I start to loathe the life I have but I always tell myself that it will get better so that I would not loathe myself and this life.

Realize that more than anyone, I am the one that has cried so much and suppress so much pain and sadness. You cause my anguish. The way I am now is all because of you so do not point finger and put the blame on me. I do blame myself for becoming like this and letting you get to me but a girl can only take so much… One person cannot simply accept everything that is going on with them. The burden of the pain and sadness you have caused is too much for me to control and to balance. You have exceeded what I am capable to accepting. I cannot just sit here and accept the hurtful words you have given me. I am emotionally and mentally hurt to the point that I have to doubt every single person I meet. I fear that they are just like you… nothing but a stranger to cause me anguish.

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©Sharm Ching

Alone

Dear Diary,

“The worst thing in the world isn’t being alone. It’s being surrounded by people that make you feel like you’re alone.”

— Unknown

Just a little reminder…

Peace and Love.

xoxo

Your Love

1st Stanza:
Your love is sweet, and warm,
your love is wonderful to feel,
when you hug me I feel like floating in the sky,
when you kiss me I can see the flowers are blooming,
and the fireworks are really sparkling really bright into the sky,
when I see you smiling at me I cannot control my feelings for you,
I will keep on telling you I love you!
Until the day we need to break up for a reason we cannot explain,
but I want you to know that I love you so much,
and you are my first and true love,
and even though I found another guy
I will still love you cause you are my true love,
and that will never change,
and you were the one who taught me to love so I thank you for that,
now I know how to love and it’s all because of you.

Chorus:
You should know my love is all yours,
I’ll never gonna love the same way to another guy,
I once wish to have your love but I guess I can’t have it,
and that’s how it’s gonna be, and the truth is your love will never be mine,
I just need to accept that decision of yours,
if you love her so much and as long as you are happy,
I am happy too.

2nd Stanza:
Your love makes me feel happy,
it also makes me feel comfortable,
I will keep on saying to you that I love you!
I love you so much! Baby!
Can’t you see when you smile at me
I cannot control my feelings towards you,
when you kiss me I see the flowers blooming,
and the fireworks are shinning really bright in the sky,
I can see the moonlight shinning on us so brightly
while we walk holding hands beneath it,
I feel so warm when you hug me,
I also feel that I am safe in your arms,
but all this things will be a fantasy and will remain a fantasy,
if you’re not here to spend the time with me.